Back in August, Doc told me that my brain waves were moving so fast that they were causing a traffic jam. Therefore, the brain wasn’t processing information as fast as it should. I started Neurofeedback Therapy three times a week.
After having twenty seven sensors glued to my head, I was required to stare at the computer screen. A green ball would appear, showing that my brain was listening to the computer. Each round would last two minutes. The score at the end of each round indicated how many half-seconds my brain was able to pay attention. At first, my score was only forty. I was so frustrated that it would not go up! It was not until almost November that my scores finally rose to sixty. Now my score is a hundred and four!!
Doc said he wants me to get re brain mapped and cognitively tested like I did in August. We will see how far I have progressed and how much further I have to go.
Doctor said I should be able to notice some changes. I have, but they aren’t positive. My short term memory has decreased in the last few weeks. A fellow teacher will say something and I will immediately forget it. Or I will go upstairs to get something….and forget what I wanted to find. Ironically, my short term memory had improved for three weeks in November. Then, I could remember names and details of conversations, which was a positive change. I fear my short term memory is worse than before I started Neurofeedback therapy. Even as I type, the thought causes me to shiver.
When I told this to Doc, he hinted that the opposite could have happen……My brain waves could be moving TOO slow now. I couldn’t believe it. I am so pissed off! Now I might have to get additional therapy to get the brain waves to move fast? I should have asked Doc how that could have happened…but I didn’t think of it. I blame it on my short term memory :).
Numbers are still an issue for me. A few days ago, I took my parents out to dinner. When adding up the bill on paper, my mind calculated 13 + 8 as 15. Dad pointed out my mistakes which was embarrassing.
Yesterday, one of the teachers asked me to correct some math homework. The students were to determine if the fractions were equal, greater or less than. There was no answer sheet so I solved the problems on another paper. This was fifth grade math so there was no way I was going to ask the teacher to ‘double check’ my work.
The following problem got me confused:
The “X” should be two because four goes into twenty eight . My brain kept thinking it was seven. That is because four goes into twenty eight seven times. I had to look at it twice before realizing my mistake. Sadly the teacher didn’t have any white-out so I had to cross it out. I felt so stupid and prayed that it would come back to bite me in the ass. As of now, it has not. Yet how much longer before this catches up with me?
Gumby and the Doc had me stare at the computer in order for it to measure my brain waves. Such fun! Doc could only get an accurate reading if I didn’t blink. He might as well had asked me to lift a moving car. This felt nearly impossible. I was already a tad stressed out from the day. My eye lids were twitching. This wasn’t good. Poor Doc had to re do the test three times.
Today I redid the tests from August. One was something I call “the list”. Lilly, Doc’s assistant, asked me to remember a list of twenty objects. She read off the list and I found that I remembered half of them. As we went on to other tests, Lily would ask me to repeat the things from the list.
Visual Pattern Test: As before, I had to copy the following picture:
This time, I knew I needed to draw the large square and the triangles first. Still, I had trouble with the rest of the picture.
I was also asked to list as many words that started with “F” as possible (names didn’t count). I was given a minute to do so. I don’t know how many words I listed. I only know that I listed more than last time. Furthermore, the words seemed to be more distinguished. Last time the words were like fence or frog. In other words, they were boring, one syllable words. This time they were words such as fantastic or furcated. I was so proud of myself!
Lilly did ask me the same questions as before, like “Why would a person decide to have a jury decide his fate instead of a judge?” This time I was able to list more than one reason. Sadly, I don’t recall what they were now. That scares me. How can I do so well recalling certain information sometimes and not other times? Doc just told me not to worry and to wait until he looks at the tests. Easy for him to say. I have much more in stock my Neurofeedback Therapy then he does………..